MuSiC oF mY LiFe

~~Friday, June 17, 2005~~

wah...really tough to keep my blog active recentlyl lehz! busy busy le still let my dear classmates nag me cos me forget to update blog...=X

these few weeks been busy wif sch stuffs too...more to ccas lar...lolx...haven been studying much...so i've decided tt i m gonna try to buck up abit starting from tis wkend bah...jus a lil' at a time...eg: do my tuts and try to understand wad the heck 'cher is saying...haha...since i've been stoning for the past 1 mth+...

SAG is realli giving me big headaches i must say. Millions of things to settle but i onli haf 1 body + 1 puny cow brain..realli getting on my nerves...tink i cant be too ambitious at times...cant always expect EVERYTINK to work in MY way...cant expect EVERYONE to do as i SAY...wad's the use of having a post when pple dun respect anyway? When i dun gain e appropriate respect at impt times, i feel lyk s***...sometimes..realli feel lyk saying, "f*** it, i quit! " but the tot of another person taking over tis kind of stupid job jus doesn't help to ease the matter. i m every1's fren/pal/confidante/joker if u treat me as 1, but when it comes to work and things haf to BE done, and i m IN CHARGE, i EXPECT FULL respect and attention from tt person. Not tt i m dominant or not tt i m v demanding, but...i HAVE to ANSWER to pple ABOVE me. i haf to get tinks done. But thx anyway, for making me feel lyk s*** when u dun haf tt lvl of respect for ME nor do u haf the COURTESY to at least SHOW me tt u MIGHT haf. U jus keep shooting me IN FRONT of pple, nt even leaving a f****** place for me to stand sometimes tt i realli feel lyk slapping ur eyeballs and ask u to WAKE UP and tell u tt U haf NO RIGHT TO reprimand me in terms of work quality (cos i dun do tinks tt r worst of than u) and AGE. *breathes* i dun hold grudges or tinks lyk tt, once said out, its over, and i dun hold it against anyone, but why cant some pple LEARN to be MORE SENSITIVE towards PPLE they are with? Some can be so IGNORANT cos they are simply too self-centred at times. They onli consider facts when things are against them but feel NOTHING when its dem who make life so darn difficult for others.

This IS AGAIN, not targetted at ANYONE in particular alr...jus an observation made. i m no better cos i've got flaws too. I WANT pple to point dem out so i can learn from my mistakes, bt pls make it sure tt u are doin a BETTER job than me or tt u hav SUBSTANTIAL reasons to make me bow down to u be4 trying to push me off the cliff. Its STUPIDITY tt will work its way back to u when its onli until then den u realized tt u are not too competent either. I tink its all in my family's genes tt tinks work tis way for us, we accept comments widely from every1, good/bad. But pls be tactful in saying it. Put tinks in a nice way and send the message right. If u wan to let me understand thru' the hard way, make sure tt u can do far better than me den it will get into my stubborn head. Lolx.

get realli mad when i dun wanna hurt pple's feelings and i try means and ways to put things across as nicely as possible so tt they dun feel bad or sth but wad i get back is harsh slapping and slamming my face to the wall. Maybe i shld make clear tt there's a LIMIT to EVERYTINK. Maybe i was the joker too long tt pple tend to not take me seriously when i wan them too. I realized sometimes pple who are slightly older than their batch haf tis prob. Even tho' onli a yr older, sometimes we try to be friendlier and sociable to blend in, but we tend to get mistaken as FULL-time jokers...Phew, ok enuff of all tt gloomy stuff...jus hope pple will giv me time to improve and spare my dignity...

Okok, anyway, learnt a new short piece, Peasando, nice! Once i hear 1 bar of tt song, i lyk it le...so easy, so short but so nice..keke..tink altho' guitar i m also in comm...and haf many stuff to do, i can get relieve from the guitar practises and my own guitar playing sessions at hm..lolx..luckily i've got my guitar..if not i feng le by now..keke...

ohh, today mic, alvin, jer went to donate blood sia...nice! these kind-hearted souls! haha...i cant donate today cos was on medication...wasted..if not sure go, cos tried be4 and it felt good...keke...and aft doing LOADS of ADMIN stuffs..went to watch quarterfinals for guys of the JUE DUI SUPERSTAR...haha..went for fun..got abit lost on my way there..but not too bad lar..haha...quite interesting..muahahah...

Tml's the performance at Cathay Majestic wif the CASSC pple for the Chinese Cultural Festival...hope it will be fine...keke...being director is NOT easy...haha...Jia You pple tml! Gambette!

Oh, jus to update, my hair looks lyk a bush now...dun wan tie up in front of my class cos i look weird wif it..haha...i WANNA go CUT....ARg....

" the pressure's on me...whether or not its gonna be successful, the pressure's on me...i will put in my best...i will fight for it...i wanna make it come true for all of us...jus dun make me lose my faith..jus dun make me falter...jus dun say...NO...its impt to me...and all..."

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